Friday, March 30, 2018

Psalms 3: Putting the cries of my heart into words

HIS Words

Psalm 3

A psalm of David. When he fled from his son Absalom.

Lord, how many are my foes!
    How many rise up against me!
Many are saying of me,
    “God will not deliver him.[b]
But you, Lord, are a shield around me,
    my glory, the One who lifts my head high.
I call out to the Lord,
    and he answers me from his holy mountain.
I lie down and sleep;
    I wake again, because the Lord sustains me.
I will not fear though tens of thousands
    assail me on every side.
Arise, Lord!
    Deliver me, my God!
Strike all my enemies on the jaw;
    break the teeth of the wicked.
From the Lord comes deliverance.
    May your blessing be on your people.


my words

why can i trust no one?
why do people hurt me so?
i have been forgotten
they say my life is an absurdist fantasy

God, i am trying to believe you care for me
through pain, i am trying to praise You
GOD, WHERE ARE YOU?!
are You speaking to me, am i too afraid to hear?

my sleep is fitful
each morning, i rise again, God has seen fit to give me air
i tremble with fear, and i am ashamed
the arrows pierce me still

Come God!
Help me to listen to your voice
SAVE ME! SAVE ME! SAVE ME!
destroy those who decimate the souls of those around

help me to see that you are in all good things, Lord
bless me, bless my family, bless my enemies

Wednesday, March 21, 2018

Psalms 2: Putting the cries of my heart into words

HIS Words

Psalm 2

Why do the nations conspire[a]
    and the peoples plot in vain?
The kings of the earth rise up
    and the rulers band together
    against the Lord and against his anointed, saying,
“Let us break their chains
    and throw off their shackles.”
The One enthroned in heaven laughs;
    the Lord scoffs at them.
He rebukes them in his anger
    and terrifies them in his wrath, saying,
“I have installed my king
    on Zion, my holy mountain.
I will proclaim the Lord’s decree:
He said to me, “You are my son;
    today I have become your father.
Ask me,
    and I will make the nations your inheritance,
    the ends of the earth your possession.
You will break them with a rod of iron[b];
    you will dash them to pieces like pottery.


10 Therefore, you kings, be wise;
    be warned, you rulers of the earth.
11 Serve the Lord with fear
    and celebrate his rule with trembling.
12 Kiss his son, or he will be angry
    and your way will lead to your destruction,
for his wrath can flare up in a moment.
    Blessed are all who take refuge in him.

My Words

Why do I conspire to find meaning in my life?
Why do I plan revenge in my head against those who have wronged me?
Why do I listen to those who do not believe in the Lord and understand their feelings?
Does, following you God make me more free or am a trapped for meaningless reasons?

Is God laughing at me? Am I the sinner who is being scoffed?
Am I being rebuked in His anger?
I so long to be righteous, but I am falling so short

God, help me to see that I am Yours
God, I want to see your goodness
I want to believe that You will protect me

God, the nations conspire against you
I want to be a vessel of truth, but today I am so broken
Put wise words in my mouth
Use me, if You see fit, help me to trust You
I am afraid of You, God, please spare me Your wrath
Will You bless me if I take refuge in You?

Tuesday, March 20, 2018

Psalms 1: Putting the cries of my heart into words

I have always loved the Psalms. As a reflective person who things in metaphors, I find that this book speaks the language of my soul. Since high school, I have wanted to write my own religious poetry as a reflection of the Psalms. In this time of morning, I begin.

Note: The Psalms are an inspired book of God, these poems, while inspired by the poetry in the Bible, do not hold the same significance in even the slightest.

HIS Words

Psalm 1

Blessed is the one
    who does not walk in step with the wicked
or stand in the way that sinners take
    or sit in the company of mockers,
but whose delight is in the law of the Lord,
    and who meditates on his law day and night.
That person is like a tree planted by streams of water,
    which yields its fruit in season
and whose leaf does not wither—
    whatever they do prospers.
Not so the wicked!
    They are like chaff
    that the wind blows away.
Therefore the wicked will not stand in the judgment,
    nor sinners in the assembly of the righteous.
For the Lord watches over the way of the righteous,
    but the way of the wicked leads to destruction.

My Words

Reflections, glory 
Souls, righteousness

Those avoiding evil
Pure words flow

Open mind, God's Words
Delightful following, God's Laws

Firm in the strong winds
Productive yields from deep within

Wicked flung across the barren land
Cast in sorrow away from love





Monday, March 19, 2018

Lyrics. Not my writing.

Sometimes we stay in the desert. Some of us do not make it out alive.
Worlds Apart
I am the only one to blame for this 
Somehow it all ends up the same 
Soaring on the wings of selfish pride 
I flew too high and like I charus 
I collide
With a world I try so hard 
To leave behind 
To rid myself of all but love 
To give and die
To turn away and not become 
Another nail to pierce 
The skin of one who loves 
More deeply than the ocean 
More abundant than the tears 
Of a world embracing every heartache
Can I be the one to sacrifice 
Or grip the spear and watch 
The blood and water flow
To love you, take my world apart 
To need you, I am on my knees 
To love you, take my world apart 
To need you, broken on my knees
All said and done I stand alone 
Amongst the remains of life I should not own 
It takes all I am to believe 
In the mercy that covers me
Did you really have to die for me? 
All I am for all you are 
Because what I need 
And what I believe 
Are worlds apart 
And I pray
On my knees
I look beyond the empty cross 
Forgetting what my life has cost 
And wipe away the crimson stains 
And dull the nails that still remains 
More and more I need you now 
I owe you more each passing hour 
Battle between grace and pride 
I gave up not so long ago 
So steal my heart and take the pain 
Wash the feet and cleanse my pride 
Take the selfish, take the weak 
And all the things I cannot hide 
Take the beauty, take my tears 
The sin-soaked heart and make it yours 
Take my world all apart 
Take it now, take it now 
And serve the ones that I despise 
Speak the words I can't deny 
Watch the world I used to love 
Fall to dust and thrown away 
I look beyond the empty cross 
Forgetting what my life has cost 
Wipe away the crimson stains 
And dull the nails that still remain 
So steal my heart and take my pain 
Take the selfish, take the weak 
And all the things I cannot hide 
Take the beauty, take my tears 
Take my world apart, take my world apart 
I pray, and I pray, and I pray 
Take my world apart 
Worlds apart

Sunday, March 11, 2018

It's Time to Have Controversial, Intellectual Conversations in Christian Classrooms

One of my dear friends who also happens to be a brilliant theologian recently shared the following article. In this piece the author describes the theological weakness they have encountered among the Christians with their social group. It opens with a story of a coffee shop barista, who is a professing Christian and attends a Christian university, being approached by an atheist customer who proceeds to ask several questions about how a university can possible incorporate Christianity into classes such as scientist. The barista is quickly overwhelmed and flounders. The author suggests this indicates that she was to as studied in her belief as was her questioner. Based on the details given of this third hand account I am inclined to agree.

I encourage you to read the whole article. The author then discusses how often many modern churches have stopped incorporated the rich, complicated, intellectual study in favour of emotionalism. There are many parts of it I could easily respond to, rebut and debate, but I want to focus on the opening story and an issue that the author steps around. It is utterly unacceptable that a student at Christian university was this unprepared to have her world view questioned.

Before I direct this further, I want to quickly state that it does sound like she was likely ambushed by someone looking to bully her for her beliefs. It does not appear that this young man was seeking an intensive conversation where world views could be compared and deeply understood. Now as I am reading about this, I could mistaken. However, if you are of a Christian belief and find yourself in such a situation where you are being corned by someone who is only looking to fluster you instead of engage you, I would recumbent Tactics by Greg Koukl. This will give you several techniques to either extract yourself or to turn the conversation into something more productive.

The Christian University Classroom
In an ideal Christian learning environment, a student should be provided with the opportunity to engage in deeper learning as spirituality can be a part of the discourse. For Christian students who attend it take a chance for them to understand the their faith more deeply and to be challenged by the difficult questions involved in Christianity. For a secular student who chooses to attend a Christian school, they should leave with a nuanced understanding of a theistic worldview and philosophy. Further the subject teachers should be well versed in the issues and intersections their perspective discipline has with matters of faith.

In order to do this well, faculty must do more that what was described by the young lady in the story. It is more than praying before class. It is more that simply agreeing that almost everyone in the room is a Christian and then moving forward. Doing this means impelling assignments within the classroom that guide students through critical thought of what it means to have a Christian worldview within this field. As a someone who has taught physics within a Christian context, this means engaging the students on issues like understanding the difference between the scientific method (a tool for understanding data) and scientism (a philosophical worldview).

A well studied atheist will have asked the difficult questions and have wrestled with challenging answers. (Moral relativism, for example, has some pretty uncomfortable consequences which has been tackled intensively by several promenade atheists.) Students at Christian universities should face the questions that are being asked of them by secularists. I have found that many secularist ask excellent questions which demand thoughtful answers. In my field, these questions including the nature of miracles and other non-physical events describe in the Bible, the age of the Earth and Universe, and believing something which can be tested using the scientific method. In Biology, there is the question of evolution, in psychology, there is bio-psychological determinism, in history, there the historicity of the Bible, just to name a few other fields. The question is, are Christian universities actually addressing these issues in their classrooms?

The evidence I can offer is experiential and antecedal and I am going to focus on the STEM disciplines within these universities. Generally speaking, I have found these conversations missing from science classrooms. This is particularly tragic, as many atheists in popular culture are scientists giving scientific arguments for their belief system. Sometimes this lack of conversations comes from fear. A fear that introducing students to nuanced views of creation, evolution, and the geological timeline will result in angry students, angry parents, and angry board members. While this fear may hold some truth, today culture demands that we must move beyond such conventions. The students within these classes will exposed to these ideas eventually. It would be best to do so in an environment where than be guided through intensive material with focus on developing a critical thinker with a strong worldview. If the Christian worldview is true, then any Christian should be able to study any field in science without fear and with a critical eye. We should not fear the world, but instead we should understand the world.